Drama

My 20s have been filled with so much drama.

Especially the last few years.  I am 27 now and I didn't even have this much drama in High School.

High school was great.  Even the few years I spent in college had less drama.

I didn't realize it got worse as an adult.

Maybe it isn't supposed to be like this.  It is all bad drama.

It is exhausting and its not even my drama....I just always get pulled into it.

and i think that is why these people don't like me or talk about me...

I live in a completely different state.  Besides my MIL and FIL,

I have no family here.  I have no friends in Vegas. 

I haven't gone to the Down Syndrome Organization here becuz I am afraid I am going to run into a super-mom-advocate who I will probably end up offending.

My number one concern is the security of my husband and my children.

And even that is up in the air right now as we live in this bad economy, living paycheck to paycheck, our house falling apart around us, and I'm feeling alone and the enemy....

I'm starting to fall apart. 

and I can't.

I have to keep it together.