...these moments

I have anxiety.  I have paranoia.  I am stressed out all the time.  I hate it.

but...

I have these moments that come out of nowhere.

Happy moments...

Thankful moments...

..and they are getting better, more frequent, and I am thankful for these moments.

My daugther, quietly coming into my bedroom, climbing up the bed, resting her head against my arm, and says,

"i love u mommy".

Happy.

Emmett, who is so curious, and so ambitious.  He is this little child who is so interested in everything around him, trying to learn what the purpose of it all is.  It really does make me appreciate every single little baby boy moment more because it will be gone before I know it. 

Happy.

My husband.  What can I say?  Quote every love lyric or poem?  There are not enough words.  Only the feeling I have when he looks at me, kisses me, hugs me, touches my shoulder.  In our short 5 years together, we have gone through so much in our time together.  I fully know that we can make it through anything and I have faith that things will start to look up for us and our family. 

I don't have to try with him.  I am myself and he loves me.

I am so thankful I found this man...who is absolutely perfect for me.

Happy.

Thankful.

these moments are my life.